I wrote the following in April (2006) on the Caribbean island. It’s a part of an epilog that I eventually cut from the book…

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Exposing the lies and hypocrisies of the people who run this sorry ass world is fish in a barrel time since the truth is usually a matter of public record, notwithstanding that everyone, the world itself, fails to mention the public-record truth about the lies and hypocrisies — the world itself in effect rewriting its own history and doing so of its willing accord, i.e., no coercion.

Lacking such a public record, exposing the lies and hypocrisies of a sociopathic female, especially a former love of one’s life, and especially if she is trained in the same line of work that makes an optimist of poor Georgie O, is a little trickier; one must occasionally produce one’s own “public record.” By way of explanation, and see how the uncertainty principle rears here: During my flight to this island on October 27th, 2006, I mulled the events in San Jose, culminating in my dark moment in the hallway of the Balmoral. That I’d not killed Kim for being full of shit had, I realized, a downside, mainly for this narrative, the downside being that a year would probably pass before publication of this book, and Lisa and Kim would no doubt deny the events I’d witnessed. They’d claim they were not in San Jose together, let alone fucking at the Balmoral. They’d try to make a liar out of me, and in doing so, like everyone else — from a dumb ass movie producer who once called me a genius to the most powerful shitball motherfucker on the planet (and everyone in between) – they would rewrite history. So while on layover I emailed the two with the bad news that I’d witnessed their sordid doings, encapsulating what I’ve told you here, and wondered (in case they didn’t get the drift) what Kim’s wife Sassy, Lisa’s “best friend,” would think of it all. Although I knew they’d scramble to get their story straight and go right to Sassy with some PM maneuvers – mostly preemptive discrediting and misdirection, I figured – I also knew that as always Lisa would fuck up (she’d be in charge): aside from something being wrong with her, there’s something wrong with her. She would reply and would not be able to resist saying too much with her detail-rich babbling. And such was the case. The next day, October 28th, I got her emailed reply; it contained the predictable fuck up. See if you can spot the self-contained lie:

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 hey idiot. that is very wierd and very sad. since you were watching, why didn't you see Kim waiting for me in the Lobby after our beer at Chelles, which itself was after a movie at San Pedro.

He didn't go up to the room.

and then if you were (obviously and sadly) watching you would have seen see me come down off the elevator 5 minutes later with a big empty grey suitcase (it was empty because I brought it up full of books and sold the books at Mora Books — i was giving him the suitcase so he can fill it up with the stuff he bought at PriceMart and he was going to send it all down on Tracopa).

And then you didn't see him leave the hotel with that suitcase and get into a cab. Then he (in the cab) went to his friend Noberto's house in Desamparados, his taxi driver with whom he stays (for free) when he is in town. And a tape recorder outside the door, wow. You are so clever. (Note: I didn’t have a tape recorder; I lied about that.) So what did you get? Pretty much more of the same like you got when you tried to "catch" me and Barry. Lot of nothing.

Or maybe the sounds of me flicking through the channels for a little while. Yeah, more likely. I liked seeing the CBS news in Costa Rica. Man, why don't you Get A Life. Don't worry about hurting sassy. I'll show this to her myself. Kim and I are friends and that's as far as it goes. Oh, and he gives me neck adjustments and does electrical work on Casa Tigre. Don't know how your email got through. Got to make sure your address is blocked once and for all. I must have deleted the Trash rule inadvertently. Whoops, that won't happen again. Congratulations on getting an agent and a publisher.

Too bad you've abandoned your dogs.

Considering why I left my home, nice touch with the abandoning my dogs comment, no?

Right: No limits.

Does Lisa’s sad tone sound familiar? Right. Rumsfeld was sad at the lack of media perspective in their Iraq war reportage. This sad affectation (at the lack of perspective and moral failings of others) is a PM staple.

By the way: Lisa’s congratulations on my finding a publisher sounds like another approval of this book, no? I think so.

But back to the more important matter of the self-contained lie in Lisa’s very sad email. (Again: Self-contained meaning we need not outside fact check to see it for a lie.) It’s instructive if you want to spot lies in your own life — in that if you didn’t spot the lie you have to pay better attention.

So: Did you spot Lisa’s lie?

“Kim wait(ed) for me in the Lobby… He didn’t go up to the room.”

If Kim went to the hotel to borrow the big gray suitcase, why didn’t he go up to the room and get it? Why would he wait in the lobby, making this slim female (La Flaca) go up, lug a big suitcase down to him and then have to turn around and go back up to her room? (And why would they go into the hotel separately?)

Picture it. How Would It Go? Put Yourself In Their Place. Why wouldn’t he go up to the room to get the suitcase?

Lisa didn’t think before speaking and fucked up again with one too many details. (Notice how detail-rich her email is.)

 Kim went up to Lisa’s room, although not to get a suitcase. But we already know that because I was there. Point being, though is that if you didn’t spot the lie: For your sake and for the sake of your children and their children, and for the sake of truth and creating fucking peace: Pay better attention.

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Although Lisa lying to me when she knows I know she’s lying is nothing new (and is a sociopathic hallmark), in the case the above detail-rich email, she was actually writing to Sassy; as she says, she intended to forward it to her. So this one is not as nuts as it seems.

Okay. Kim. Here’s a transcript of part of a phone conversation I had with my bro Kim after my bolt to this island:

Me: “Lisa says you didn’t go up to her room that night in San Jose.”

Kim: “That’s right. I didn’t.”

Me: “Why not?”

Kim was obviously unprepared for this one. Long pause.

Kim: “Well (another pause)… we didn’t think it was appropriate.”

Me: “Why wouldn’t it be appropriate to go to a friend’s room to pick up a suitcase?”

Kim: “It just wouldn’t be right… not right.”

Me: “I don’t understand. Why wouldn’t it be right? You mean morally, legally, what?”

Kim: “It just wasn’t right, man.”

Kim would have been better off saying, “Yeah, it was dumb. We just didn’t think of it,” no? Anything but the howler that “we didn’t think it was appropriate.” (By now – and certainly after reading this — Lisa will come up with the following: She was going back out anyway and so decided to go get the suitcase. She’ll have to think of some good reason for going out… maybe to get more b.c. pills because… something like that.)

More with Kim:

Me: “When you came out of Chelles restaurant, why did you make a right turn and walk a half block then turn around and go to the Balmoral?”

Kim wasn’t ready for this one either: “We made a wrong turn.”

Lisa probably knows the Balmoral block better than any city block anywhere. There is no counting the times we stayed at that hotel and eaten at Chelles, just down the street on the same block. (Plus, after walking a half block they stopped and talked for a good 30 seconds before reversing direction. If it was a simple wrong turn, what could they have been discussing?)

Me: “Lisa didn’t know where the Balmoral was?”

Kim: “We made a wrong turn.”

Me: “You didn’t know where the Balmoral was?”

Kim: “I don’t know San Jose very well.”

Kim, who has lived in Costa Rica for going on 15 years and has been to San Jose probably a hundred times, doesn’t “know San Jose very well?”

Since the truth is that Lisa and Kim were at first going to Kim’s hotel then Lisa changed her mind, Kim had to lie, and since he couldn’t come up with anything else the above howler had to do. But the point being: Kim, who so far had only been full of shit in his deceit, had now made the jump to telling Big Lies, to sociopathy, since he was now lying to someone, me, who knew he was lying, and he knew I knew.

Big Lies. Some only affect saps like me. But in this case, it was Sassy, Kim’s wife who was the only real victim, since by that night in San Jose I didn’t care who Lisa fucked, or where or when.

According to my caretaker Marcos (who is very plugged into the Tico grapevine) and according to Jean (who knows Sassy) and according to emails I received from Sassy, last fall Sassy knew Lisa and her husband were lying, and the treachery almost ended her marriage. And guess what? Now, five months later Sassy is denying it ever happened. This so she can continue to live with her deceitful husband and feel comfortable about it. She’s denying it ever happened to create peace.

She and Kim have formed a mini-closed system, the purpose of which, like all closed systems (my definition of closed systems is in the World Affairs sub-section of Part Two), is to rewrite history and to live in denial — by maintaining lies.

But since Sassy’s history-rewrite attempts to make a liar out of me, I’m going to quote a couple emails I got from her, and others. I’m sorry to have to do this – Sassy is a nice person – but the truth of this matter is important. (If Sassy is going to be angry at someone for the public exposure of this stuff, she might talk to her husband, no?) I’ll highlight the relevant passages so you don’t have to wade through the new age crapola.

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Allen,

I am in panama with Maria. I read your email. I am so sorry that you are envolved in this very sad drama. It all makes me weak. I feel like it is draining the life force out of me. I told Kim that I did not want to respond to any of this. I JUST cant CARE!!!!! When Kim told me that you were accuseing him of being with Lisa, I gave him a high five and said cool, good for you. I dont care who Kim chooses to be with, I dont know if they were together or not and I dont care. Allen, Life is for living, for joy and happiness not for suffering. I feel like you are suffering so much. I am concerned for your health. Please dont let this crap consume you. All this shit can manifest itself as more disease in the body. LET IT GO… JUST LET GO!!!!! You make the choise that is best for you. Forget everyone ealse.I know you are hurt, but you can move on from here and just let it go. You have friends that love you. Friends that wish only the best for you. I cant be a part of this drama. It makes me so sad and I feel so drained from it all. I have told kim that I dont want to hear any more about it and is not allowed to speak of it any more in front of me. Im sorry…. for you, for everyone that must endore all this he said ,she said stuff. It is effecting so many.WHY? I for one just want to say I AM SORRY for what ever part of this that I created and I dont want you to hurt anymore End this and you will find peace. Love and Light, sassy

Talk about denial! But okay. The subtext of the above is pretty clear: Sassy knows that her husband is lying to her about cheating. Aside from their night at the Balmoral, I have strong evidence that the two of them had been fuckbuddies for many months. The following is an email I received from my caretaker Marcos. The translation comes next. (Done by a disinterested third party who is more fluent in Spanish than I am) You’ll notice that Marcos also confirms Lisa’s fucking Barry, which we already know about.

Printable View This message is not flagged. [ Flag Message - Mark as Unread ] From:"Marcos XXXXX XXXXXXX" View Contact Details Add Mobile Alert To:acwdownsouth@yahoo.com Subject:RE: Re: personal Date:Mon, 27 Mar 2006 10:44:39 -0600 De Marcos XXXXXXXXX para Allan ,primero paso a informarle que los dias martes 24 de enero miercoles 25 jueves26 viernes27 Lisa estuvo haciendo ingreso a la casa de BARRI aproximadamente a las 9 de la noche y saliendo el dia siguiente hasta las 6 de la manana ,el dia sabado salieron cerca de las 4.30 de lamanana hacia el aeropuerto en Golfito.Segun algunas personas como REIVIN VARGAS < ,AQUIS,LOS HERMANOS DE ROMAN Y LA MISMA Maria Luisa,incluso el senorReivin Vargas asegura que un dia el llego a trabajar y ella y barri se estaban banando todavia ,en cuanto a el nombre de la persona que Dilan el hijo de KIM le comento haber encontrado a ellos dos teniendo relaciones sexuales es ELI el mismo vive 25 metros despues de lacalle de TEDD ,la misma SASSI me comento que Andrea la esposa de AQUIS le dijo haber visto aLISA Y KIM teniendo relasiones ,pero que a ella simplemente no le molesta eso dijo Sassi.A continuacion las direcciones de Paul y Lili Romano,miraolas@hotmail.com. DE Rudi ES COKKE@AOI.com .espero pronto poderme comunicar con usted buena salud y suerte le deceamos Lorena yeste servidor Marcos Arturo Salazar Godinez.GRACIAS POR SU AMISTAD ATTE.SUS AMIGOS EN PAVONES.

The translation: >From Marco for Allan. First I'm informing you that >Tuesday 24 of January, Wednesday 25, Thursday 26 and >Friday 27 Lisa entered the house BARRI's house at >around 9:00 pm and left the next morning at 6. On >Saturday they left aroung 4:30 am and heeaded to the >airport in Golfito. According to some people like >Reivin Vargas, Aquis ( the brothers of Roman and the >same Maria Luisa including Mr. Reivin Vargas asures >that one day got o work and she and Barri were still >bathing, as far as the name of the person that XXXX >the son of Kim commented about having found them >having sexual relations is Eli, the same that lives 25 >meters ater Teds street, and Sassi commented to >Andrea, Aquis wife, that she saw Lisa and Kim having >sexual relations. But that to her it simply doesn't >matter, that's what Sassi said. I >hope to soon be in touch with you. Be healthy and >good luck. Lorena and yours truly Marco………etc. >Thank you for your friendship. Your friends in >Pavones. > — Marcos XXXXXXX XXXXXXXXX wrote:

I didn’t bother to highlight the revelation about Barry because we already know him. The highlighted passage is important in that Marcos found it odd that Sassy would not care that her husband was cheating on her and lying about it. If you look at Sassy’s first email (above), you’ll see that she says this herself – “I JUST cant CARE!!!!!” The significance here is that the agreement on this point in Marcos’s email tends to confirm that he’s being truthful, as is his source – not that either of them have any reason to lie. That Kim and Sassy’s son (whom I don’t wish to name publicly) came across Kim and Lisa fucking is also significant in that I heard that from someone else as well. This tends to confirm that Lisa and Kim had been going at it for months, which Marcos was sure of. (Sassy had been out of the country since the late spring.) Another Sassy email:

> >— Kim XXXXXXXXX wrote: > > >——————————— > > >Allan, > (I cut some new agey stuff) You asked how I feel about >Lisa? She just is….. why judge? Like I have been a >prefect angel in my life..NO WAY!!!! It is what it >is… and tomarrow is a new day and with every sun >rise is a chace to start new. Ask yourself if she does >not gain even more power from the way you are >responeing? If you chose to say Fuck It! How would >that have changed how you feel now. Im trying to >remember what you said about not accepting the truth >about the lies, or something like that… Every time >there is a lie we are effected, but we detremin where >it goes from there. Will I trust the same ??? will I >feel the same? The answer is no,But I still have a >choise. Look, to see the flaws in others helps me not >to be so hard on myself. It some how feels good to >know that (the all mighty Kim is not perfect)Again on >how I feel about Lisa….. She hasn´t done anything to >me to make me think of her as evil. There is a trust >issue… Will I belive her when she speaks??? Not the >same way I would have if all this never happened… WE >ARE EFFECTED!!! But we still get to choose where it >goes from here.I feel like Im going on and on,so I >choose to close now and say,I hope I answered your >question and maybe you can see it from where I sit. > >Love and Light,SASSY

So yes, Sassy knew, and for reasons other than my spilling the beans. (Why would Sassy say It some how feels good to know that (the all mighty Kim is not perfect) if she didn’t know Kim was lying about all this? And she obviously knows that Lisa was lying as well.)

Here’s a good one from a neighbor, who wishes to remain anonymous.

Printable View This message is not flagged. [ Flag Message - Mark as Unread ] Date:Wed, 10 May 2006 03:49:34 -0700 (PDT) From: XXXXXXX@yahoo.com> View Contact Details Add Mobile Alert Yahoo! DomainKeys has confirmed that this message was sent by yahoo.com. Learn more Subject:Re: allan up north To:"Allan Weisbecker"

hey allan Hi Allen, this is XXXXX. I think you mean XXXXXX Sassy´s girlfriend? I talked to her once and she confirmed that she saw Lisa and Kim kissing at the Cantina. And one time I saw Kim spending the night with Lisa in your house. The thing with Barry I told XXX. This is confirmed! The day he came back Lisa left for New York so I assume this is over. Pls. pls. treat everything confidentially.

So aside from re-re-confirming Lisa fucking Barry, this one is still another indication that Lisa and Kim had been going at it for some time. Based on Kim’s having lied for Lisa back in January of 2005 (denying he’d heard Lisa say I’m not allowed to drink), I strongly suspect for many months. And as mentioned, Marcos thought this, citing , among other things, their late returns from border trips to “buy construction materials.” And that they’d fuck in my house is of course another level of betrayal, both by Lisa and my bro, who berates me for my negative energy emissions. Regarding the border trips, I mention in the book that I even know what flophouse they used. Click here for that cut chapter.

Paradoxically, her Get A Life comment cut both ways. She was fucking her best friend’s husband and I should get a life? On the other hand, the same words actually did apply to me, since my dark moment could also be summed up by my presence during this behavior. (Paradoxically, this sort of paradox is another example of symmetry. I think. I mean, isn’t it?)